I was waiting for it

My “someday” to pour in

My “I made it” story

My “it’s okay, you’re there, breathe out”

It’s like I had this

Vision I’d someday have it

This house I saw way back when

I was a kid riding around

It was bigger than ours

They had some nicer cars

It look like something you’d see

Just off of Sunset Blvd

And that shifted my mind

Like that’s where happiness hides

Like that’s where I need to be

Until then, I’m on the grind

And that came with shame

Like until I made

Enough to buy that place

I wasn’t worth my veins

 

So maybe I should say

As I’m underpaid

Before all my best days

Are lost along the way

 

I got people I know

Who’ve got a seat in my soul

Who lift me if I fold

Or lift a drink when I don’t

Maybe that’s the dream that I own

That’s my receipt for my home

Like all I need to feel whole

Is a couple friends, one lover and a backbone

 

If I could be satisfied

Without permission from life

Without applause or a stage

Or vodka lacing my nights

There’d be nothing to chase

Nothing to lose or find

If within, I am enough

The need to prove it’s a lie

So maybe my someday

Is right in my face

Maybe looking for it only takes

as you slave away

 

Maybe I should say

As I’m underpaid

Before all my best days

Are lost along the way

 

I got people I know

Who’ve got a seat in my soul

Who lift me if I fold

Or lift a drink when I don’t

Maybe that’s the dream that I own

That’s my receipt for my home

Like all I need to feel whole

Is a couple friends, one lover and a backbone